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The Living Or Dead
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Cee-Tee
0302** ... (hushhush)
Javanese plus Minangkabau
Highly Temperamental & Paranoid

Friendster
Burp
Dian
Dila
Efin
Fareeza
Farna
Maxie
Nana
Razeanti
Seri

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Dear diary,
it has been raining heavily lately. The stupid aircon at work was super damn frezzing. Maybe they decide to lower down the temperature after I complained it was damn stuffy. And now Im frezzin to death at work.

I'm serving my one month now. After which its goodbye forever. I rather not brag anything about it. Like the saying goes if there is nothing good to say, just remain shut. Mum is the word. I am so happy leaving. I used to love my job however somehow or rather it seems trouble always find me though I jolly well stirred myself away from office politics or gossips. Well, there are bound to have people who will bring you down. Maybe I do owe her something in my previous lifetime. I don't know, just my two cents worth of thoughts.

It has been a few days already. Five days to be exact. And frankly my heart still feelin very sore. Very bitter. I know she was his past. I knew how much his feelings used to be for her. And I know that now only me in his heart. I know he treat me very good, very well, so much better than I have ever been treated before. But somehow what he told me that very day still upsets me till now. I would be lying to myself if I say it doesnt affect me a bit. Though it was just a dream. I kept playin that very song on my mp3, in my head over and over again. And that very night I sent him off, I really wish that I dont have to let him go. I wish he could reassure me more. SIGH!!! Somehow I feel that its my fault. To love someone beyond my control,to love someone too much I guess.

I dont know why. It just seems lately im being sensitive. Everything seems to go wrong for me. I really need to find the inner strength. God, give me strength!

Think. Period!!!